Returning for more Gold

In my pain I am in connection. In my pain I experience the Holy Nature of Christ

Sensing ourselves again

In the wound, suffocating, panic

Running away

Energy vomit on blueberry bushes and my eyes black

Mother will take care of it

Her silence soothes and the energy of her presence in Nature around me is palpable

I’m consumed by the flooding rush of adrenaline from PTSD memories coming over me

Making me remember what pains I have endured

Pains that already are and will become my healed blessings to the world

Even when they ache in manners that feel as if I’m reliving then again,

they are healed

I’m just at the altar of raw human experience

We return to our wounds, over and over, in divinely timely manner, not because we are unhealed but because golden seeds of our path is found there

When I kneel with my defenses down

bleeding from my pores at the feet of my Creator and Saviour, I am in connection to something so …. real

It is here I find redemption

It is here I retrieve salvation

and eternal Life

In front of our Holy Lord and Mother Nature

My hands open

my heart submitting ..

The full experience, ripping Love and Glory of

God